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| 01:02pm 13/10/2005 |
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mood:  awake music: the cranberries- when you're gone
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ok, i'm going to delete this journal soon..
i figure i'll wait just a little longer so the ones that want to keep up with me will see this and add me back, otherwise i'll have just dropped off the face of this earth to them!
soo, add away, and if you dont wanna add me back that's fine, i'll start removing ppl from my other lj soon, too...
ciao! |
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| 12:43am 13/10/2005 |
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mood:  loved music: rascal flatts- i melt
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ok, i've got my new journal for those who care, and it's quite similar, sure, but whatev..
chasing_herrr
ps., i'm the luckiest girl on earth and have the best girlfriend ever...
and yeah, my girlfriend is better than yours. ;p |
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| cake and candles |
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| 11:50pm 10/10/2005 |
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mood:  calm music: edwin mccain- i'll be
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i love you, tiffer. |
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| every little thing that she does.. |
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| 02:49pm 10/10/2005 |
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mood:  busy music: gary allen- nothing on but the radio
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i'm amazed. she touches every little place in my heart. and i don't know how she does it, but she does.
i'm wet from my shower and need to get dressed and ready. however, i can't seem to pry myself away from this computer as i have millions of thoughts running through my head that i'd like to talk about, but yeah, i've got no time to do so.
maybe later?
*busted* she just got out of the shower and found me on the computer when i'm supposed to be getting ready.
oops! |
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| peeeectures. |
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| 12:03am 10/10/2005 |
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mood: calm music: the spill canvas- so much
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ok
here're some more pics. one last night of my baby and her friends, two of us and one final really cute picture of my sister and i.
( Read more... )
i'm really really loving the one of my little sister and i. ;D
and damnit, i keep resizing them and it's not working and so i give up for now. deal. (sorry) |
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| our song.. |
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| 08:02pm 08/10/2005 |
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mood: loved music: josh gracin- stay with me (brass bed song)
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Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
Why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there is just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
Baby, stay with me share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me
Baby, don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
So stay
Stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay
I'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Stay with me
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gosh, i could type forever....
one sentence.
or,
three words...
she's fucking amazing... |
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| football time |
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| 11:08am 08/10/2005 |
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mood: touched music: josh gracin- stay with me (brass bed)
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i'm in heaven, and that's about the best way to describe it. she's so amazing that it often blows my mind. what in the world did i do to deserve her? i may never know, but then again i will never, ever question it. no way. she's sleeping behind me as i write this. i'm about to wake her up so we can go watch the UT/OU game. my baby is a good sport and ready to watch some college ball with me.
most days i just want to wake up and scream at the top of my lungs to the world about her, and other mornings i just want to cry b/c i'm so damn happy. i just can't express it enough b/c yeah, words couldn't possibly do it justice. i'm so going to get a good picture of us so that you guys can see. ;)
last night i watched anna & amy for gloria while she went to a concert. i had a blast with the girls, as well as keili did. i cried after hugging gloria bye. i'm sure going to miss them, but so thankful to have met them. afterall, no distance is far enough for me to not have friends. we'll definitely go visit them, no doubt.
ps., gloria, you're looking SO good, girl! ;D |
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| 10:04pm 23/09/2005 |
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mood:  anxious music: cnn..
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really quick, me & my family are ok. no rain has even come yet, only there gusts of wind. and they talk of the calm before the storm, well, dustin and i keep walking outside to absorb it up. there's something beautiful about this, like, the way the winds howls and brings a chill...the leaves flying around and no one, no dogs, no birds and no nothing in sight..
it's supposed to hit beaumont in about an hour, and all night long i couldnt sleep, but only worry about keili as she lives there and barely left last night at about 11.. i worried all the way until about an hour ago when she let me know she finally made it to her destination..
so, all my loved ones are now safe, i'm safe & so now bring it on.
i'm ready, baby.
everyone stay safe & i'll keep in touch with all my friends.
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| 12:40pm 22/09/2005 |
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mood:  exhausted music: nothin'
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me and my family, we're staying. we've got enough food, water, charcoal and everything to last us a while. our house is boarded up & we're far enough northwest that hopefully we dont get it as bad as the rest of houston. there's no way out, and so instead of sitting out a hurricane in our cars, we'll set it out in our much safer home.
pray for us.
i'm fucking scared.
i've had no sleep or food. i'm drained & exhausted. i think i'll nap. |
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| 07:24pm 21/09/2005 |
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mood: upset music: smashing pumpkins- love
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fuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!
fucking a, fucking fuckity fuck fuck fuck.
i hate mother nature. i hate this shit. i hate abandoning my life and running. i cant possibly pack up everything that's of worth to me. god damn, but sitting here talking about it isnt going to help get things packed any faster..
yeah, i'm leaving. my mom is panicing and begging me. ok, ok mom, i'm coming.
shit.
i pray my shit is still here when i return. ;/
i really wanted/want to tough this out! |
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| 09:19pm 20/09/2005 |
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mood: calm music: smashing pumpkins- to forgive
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why is everyone so scared about this stupid hurricane?? everyone is crying, stocking up, leaving and yada yada yada...
i'm not going no where, in fact, i just may sleep through this shit.. |
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| 03:56am 18/09/2005 |
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mood: fucking furios music: smashing pumpkins- silverfuck
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i am so pissed.
so so so SO pissed!
soooooooooooo soooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooooo-
god
damn
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| 09:52pm 11/09/2005 |
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mood:  disappointed music: smashing pumpkins
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I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost
But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind
So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...
Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on
So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep
Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we're so free
We promised that we'd be
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| 07:59pm 11/09/2005 |
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mood:  cold music: smashing pumpkins- 1979
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i miss this time in my life. i was so happy! it shines all over my face in these pictures. i looked so much happier & healthier. what is it going to take to get back there? that is what i want most. my happiness & health back. :/
( Read more... )
hmmmm. |
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| my addiction for the night |
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| 11:46pm 10/09/2005 |
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mood:  gloomy music: smashing pumpkins-in the arms of sleep
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"In The Arms Of Sleep"
Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite
I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
Cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes
And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is so hard to find
And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I'll say anything to make her feel alright
And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite
Cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite
She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of a saint on my knees
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire for you |
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| 02:49pm 10/09/2005 |
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mood:  hungry music: the smashing pumpkins- to forgive
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i am craving cheese so badly. i looooove cheese! &hearts
i've got my vince young jersey on, some wine in my hand & bbq is cooking. today is swell, and UT is even more swell. let's pull this one off! ;D
goooooooooooooo longhorns!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| 01:01pm 10/09/2005 |
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mood:  determined music: smashing pumpkins- love
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i think that cliche phrase my mother taught me to live by is so true. you know, that whole "the only thing/ person you can ever depend on is yourself."
i sleep, eat & work. this is it, this is all. i'm almost sure that if i wasn't working, i'd never be awake. i've pretty much shut everyone and everything out of my life, other than mentioned above. i'll even be honest and say i've quit taking my zoloft. (my mother would kill me if she knew)
everyone calls, and i'm either sleeping or hitting the "silence" button. i just have nothing to say. nothing to hear. my best friend in the whole wide world, my mom, yeah, i even ignore her. no one should take it personal. it's nothing to do with them, and everything to do with me. this is all about me.. i try to tell them, but i guess they don't hear me.
i keep saying, "i'll come back around, sure" but i don't see this happening. in fact, i see quite the opposite. i see myself sinking further and further, and coming to face the facts- the further i let myself sink, the harder it'll be to tread water.
today, in some eyes, i'm a fuck-up, a dissapoint, a heartbreak and much more...
personally, this bothers me. personally, i'm tired of this. personally, i'm ready to be back to good.
so today, well, i'm going to do something about it. sleeping all the damn time isn't solving anything. i can't keep waiting for my life to get better, but life is waiting for ME to get better, and it all starts with just that- me.
so, step one is waking my ass up. tonight should be tiring and an early night, seeing as how i went to bed at 6 something this morning & was up by 11 30am.
*fingers crossed* |
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| 05:48am 10/09/2005 |
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mood: gloomy music: smashing pumpkins- beautiful
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"Beautiful"
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can't help but feel attached
To the feelings I can't even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We'll let the world spin on to another place
We'll climb the tallest tree above it all
To look down on you and me and them
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
Don't let your life wrap up around you
Don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I'll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you |
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| 12:12am 10/09/2005 |
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mood:  blah music: smashing pumpkins- perfect
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...as you look down on me.... |
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